This isn't a love poem
To her:
I wish I could lasso that light at the end of your smile to my favorite memories of feeling safe
The first time you said hello it broke me
I imagine the gods made you on the first day and let the interns work on everyone else
Your voice makes my heart sing songs my brain doesn't know the words to
You've always danced around in my dreams with the audacity to glow even when everything else in the world was gray
I remember the exact moment I realized I was just your future partner's stuntman
Your love toxic, pernicious, and I couldn't get enough. I could feel it gnawing at my foundations. Eating its way through everything that made me a person. Loving you never made sense, but I never wanted it to
Beating myself up over things I can't fix, I was always scared that it wasn't that you were looking for more, just that you weren't looking for me
I swallowed my pride and my pride laughed as it tore its way back out through my chest just to ask why not me. Maybe I loved you because I knew you wouldn't love me back
There's a better version of me in the future that thanks me every day for burning the bridge labeled "one more chance." He's smarter than me. I kinda hate him
To him:
We haven't met but I know you. I heard you in her laughter, I saw you in her smile. I'm sorry it didn't work out.
**Please note that this is about no one in particular and some unused work from a separate project. Folks I've dated in the past are honestly all great and I wish them nothing but good food and the best of lives. **